last sat, i went for my ex colleagues bbq pit.. it was fuckin far siak frm the macdonald at east coast.. omg,its like 15 mins walk.. sigh sigh!!! me and my sis left early to met up nizam and haizam. fuck.. they r suppose to meet us at 11 and end up they fuckin screw us up by waiting for them almost an hr and end up,they gotta last min plan.. arghh!!! i was totally piss off when Mr Crush call me to meet up for a supper. so i was okay laa.. i was still piss off. he fetch me my place arnd 1 am and he was like, are you okay?? i told him, today is my piss off day and pls dun piss me okay? he kept quiet and he's like okay, lets watch soccer..and he ask me wat happen and etc.. liverpool vs tottenham<-- i hope it's spell correct! liverpool 1-2. Mr Crush was like wtf!! how cld liverpool lost!!! my reply, well wat do u expect, its tottenham place they r having on.. for sure, tottenham will win rite.. duhhh.. 1st was like own score and 2nd they score by 90 min.. like wtf kan!so after tat we had a chat and etc.. then he send me off to home. today is ... Wednesday!! let me see, just another bored day for Ain!! this week i'm not meeting Mr Crush :( sad sad sad... next week i guess we'll be meeting. we were on the phone just now and he's like okay..next week we'll go to Sakae Sushi. Yes!! its been mths since i had a sushi in my mouth.. drooling...
*counting the days... 10 more days* omg.. i m trying to force myself realising he's just a fren,nothing more. he's strange.. he will hold my hands whenever we go out together,saying that he wanna make sure i'm okay and safe. our first date, i still rmbr, we were walkin at this pasar mlm and he was on the phone with his papa when this Malay man came to me,asking for a lighter since i was smoking and Mr Crush is a
NON SMOKER AND DRINKER. so i give it to him, and he smile and he look at Mr Crush and say Thanks to me and walk away.. after that, Mr Crush say to me, "i dun understand SMOKERS, they can afford to buy a pack of cig and they cldnt afford to buy a lighter? how LAME!! tats why don't be a smoker!!!" i was like okay!! so after that we went to the bus stop, and then.. tat MALAY guy walk past us and look at me and smile. i look away.. then Mr Crush ask me, "so, is he tryin to get to know u wat?" , i say"mana la i tahu.. he's only askin for a lighter lahh..!" then Mr Crush hold my waist and kiss me.. then he say," i think he wanna get to know u.. the way he say and watever..btw he did look at me when he ask for a lighter rite?" i was like, "yahhh.." he reply, 'ok tats good then..is he lookin at u rite now??" i was like, alamakkk.. why get so work up?? sigh sigh..
Mr Crush, i m so missin you man...few days ago, 2 of my ex contacted me saying how much they miss me and etc.. i was like okay. malas la nk layann.. why shld i miss them when i miss Mr Crush the most other than this jerks.. i guess they have taste their own medicine.. serve them rite!! drng da boring, nk cari aku la ni, sweet talk and etc. pls la eh, even if these ppl were to beg on their knees on me, i wld still say NO!
Last Thoughts @ 3:47 AM
September 2008