i dunno why but i just keep on dreamin of my ex,didi, who i broke up like 2 yrs back. well sumtimes i do think of him, the moment when i think of him,i will dream of him.. but sumtimes i don't and i sumtimes i do dream of him. recently, today, i dreamt that in my dreams i was with him, its like consider a goodbye journey between us.. and i told him that, "no matter what we r apart, i nak u cari i ,walau apa2 pun." and then he just smile and hug me and kiss me..and there he walk off.
honestly, i know life moves on. but after he walk off from my life, its totally different. i can't find any man to replace him. my greatest regret in my life is that he's not with me. i always ask God when i think of him, "am i meant to be with him or not? if i am, show me with my eyes that he's meant for me. if not, show me with my eyes that he's with another girl . Whatever decision, i accept since i know jodoh ni di tangan Tuhan.
even thou i'm with a different guy, i can't lie to myself, i still think of my ex didi,no matter what.. i try all way out to contact him back,but i failed. but i have a feeling he's happily with another women and she shld be thankful to have him.. but deep inside, there's just no one to replace him in my heart.. insyallah the day will come where sum1 will replace him, insyallah didi might come back to my life.. but then ni semua di tangan Tuhan. i know it's a test from him.. and i just have to bear with it and move on with my life with every test given by him.. :)
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Last Thoughts @ 12:41 PM
September 2008